Sunday, August 31, 2008 8:00 PM
SUFFERING FROM SEVERE CASE OF MENTAL BREAKDOWN.damn. what is the world coming to. bad dreams recurring lately. life in the day seems smooth, but at night i get not even one moment of peace. sometimes it's my dad, sometimes it's my bro, some other times it's even the mosquitoes and bed bugs irritating me. ARGH. more problems just keep poping up. is god or heaven or anything that's above trying to bully me? damn. see larh such a happy day today ended up in a total big mess. what's this?! from the looks of it, things just aren't ready to be resolved yet. i just feel like dropping everything off at this point and stop confusing myself over and over again. i was thinking perhaps i dont even like him that much for me to do things until this extreme. in my head i would be thinking to myself, "please larh, what era liao, i should just be more straightforward if not in the first place cause all this problems for what." ARGH. i dunno whether i truthfully think i am to blame but i am sure i didn't want this to happen either. damn. i'll just shut off for now then.&lynlyn©
Friday, August 29, 2008 7:58 PM
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!eh. especially to my form teacher Ms Teresa Kee! XDalso to my favourite subjects teachers Mdm Leong, Mr Ho, Mr Ling, Ms Goh and Ms Chian.plus plus former geography teacher Ms Adrian Tan. [You rock man! :D]and all other NHHS teachers. thanks a lot for being there for us!hehe. i must say the concert put up by the seniors, mostly sec 3, was great. especially dance and the hip hop style one. so nice. 302 singing part was nice also larh. not really bad. honestly i was touched lorh. what they did were like really extra miles. GOOD JOB! LOL.after school, i went to play basketball. erm. it's like the first time in my life i play basketball until soooooooo shuang before. really. i played like really long. and it's all consecutive matches. so shiok. then after that is like play liao then next set, then our turn again. very fun. me agnes and ziqing go there also not sian one. action packed i would say. XD i got to release the stress from all those things in school and elsewhere larh. this sport is like really my sort of passion larh. it's so fun i wouldn't mind playing it from day to night.i'm sort of reflecting on all the things other people say. hopefully, i can come to a certain "decision". at least i think i should think up something and not wait for someone else to solve things for me. i also dunno where to start thinking from. but yeah. my mind is probably not in it's right state larh. i know i don't have the proper means to think that much also. however, i believe once i decide on something, nothing will change it. and when that time comes, i can finally put my mind on my studies and stop worrying about this frustrating stuff.&lynlyn©
Friday, August 22, 2008 7:56 PM
TOTALLY DISORIENTED, MY LIFE SEEMS JEAPORDISED.Argh. i'm so not in the right mood to play basketball. nothing seems to be right recently. i'm like so pissed off with myself too cause i really don't understand myself. damn. after playing basketball in the rain today, i realised my life is totally crapped up for one reason or another. the stupid f*ing balls just won't go into the hoop. probably upset that things didn't go the way it used to. but sooner or later everything will be normal again. i very the abnormal recently. i don't get why too. i just find myself acting damn wierd and honestly i'm getting really affected by what people say. it was not like this before larh. can't everything just be back to normal? seriously mentally stressed out with all these problems hanging around in every corner of my head. i just feel i must solve them first. it's exactly like putting stones to fill up your blood vessels?! at least that's how i feel everytime i get so f*cked up.&lynlyn©
Wednesday, August 20, 2008 10:30 PM
SHIOK SHIOK SHIOK! Exam FINALLY over. ARGH. long and traumatising period of time for me as well as the class bah. Now can at least sleep properly again. SIAN. Perhaps I'm just not just used to it, but it still feels as if i'm studying for the damn common tests. very stressed out lately. don't know what i'm thinking and feeling troubleddddd like MAD. what's the F***ing problem here? don't ask me, i have no idea. most probably tmr we are like gonna get back our mathematics paper. darn. this is what you can call 一泼未平，一泼又起 or however you write it larh. bad chinese, don't mind me. if there was any bottled drink that could make people forget their problems temporarily I WILL DEFINITELY BUY IT! actually think so much no point, the best solution is to NOT CAUSE ANY in the first place. all comes back to me larh. damn. forget it. what's the point of saying all these anyway. aRGGHHHHH. need time to ponder over some stuff currently so byebye people.&lynlyn©
Tuesday, August 19, 2008 5:21 PM
hey hey hey people. this is me currently turning from half-idiot to full idiot. fancy brooding over an examination that has already passed and which i didnt really fail except for the fact that i failed my own expectations larh. i didn't expect myself to really like breakdown like an idiot. so paiseh. so many people looking lorh. then it's like teacher still going through answer somemore. ARGH. can't believe i really did that. although they were like nvm nvm but i know i looked stupid, sounded stupid and what not. haish. figured out that i did not do THAT bad larh.xD eh to other fellow residents of 202 our second "HOME" lols. hard work's gonna be over in a day times. just tmr. so people jia you for your science!xD like ms kee said "i realise huh i didn't know that the jokers in the class are so supportive" LOL. so ALL THE BEST!&lynlynlisteningtovestige©
Friday, August 15, 2008 9:45 PM
.. I must be going mad. It's so OMG larh. Yesterday in my dream something that i NEVER wanted to happen appeared larh. it's quite lame and stupid larh, but it's like so real i wanna just. argh. pluck out my hair to prove that I am dreaming! darn! can't go to school today because of the damn rashes. Itchy like mad lorh. Should be because of the new brand of peanut butter's fault. haha. OFFICIALLY ALERGIC TO PEANUT BUTTER HERE!xD so sian larh. still must retake chinese test. sobsob. i want to die larh. after i eat the rash medicine and cough medicine[my old aliment] i just drop dead asleep on my bed for several hours larh. very shiok but the cough medicine, WOAH, eat liao drowsy like siao. do maths qns hand also sot sot one. write also write out of line. HAHA. sounds like i'm suffering from terminal disease huh? eh, must thank lovely hz for helping me type out the points and notes about literature test on monday. as well as those who are concerned about me ok? you people are great. hahas! don't worry, i won't die, at the very least. HEHE. Good Luck for Common Test people!! and SINGAPORE jia you for olympics!!&lynlyn©
Wednesday, August 13, 2008 10:19 PM
HAPPY BIRD-DAY TO LEE ZIQING A.K.A DODO!!
HOPE YOU EVERYDAY VERY HAPPY AND WISH YOU MARITAL BLISS FOREVER WITH JERRALD WEE SHUZHENG!
HAHA. ALL THE BEST FOR COMMON TEST PEOPLE!xD
Friday, August 08, 2008 3:55 PM
Erm. Regarding what happen between me and huizhen. I’m really sorry larh. After I read belvia’s blog, I realise that this has REALLY caused a lot of trouble to the people around me. The problem started because of me larh. Like really. I would rather believe it’s my fault more than anyone else’s. eh, to the people who got unknowingly involved in this. I’m apologising to you people. My bad, my bad. I hope this will blow over soon and the coldwar between you people will stop faster. Sorry arh. I know I can’t make up for it. But yeah. Thanks for [if you did] forgiving me. Hahas. But it’s hard to stop.. if you get what I mean. I’m really apologetic towards all of you. I guess I can do nothing much. But I hope I’ll be of some help in resolving the conflicts caused. Paiseh arh.
&lynlyn©
Tuesday, August 05, 2008 8:26 PM
202 GOT INTO NETBALL INTER-CLASS SEMI-FINALS!!okok. we didn't win in the end. but well, it was a good game. the people who scored balls. the usuals larh. mostly choon, stan and meisee lorh. haha. congrats class!!&lynlynluvs202!!©
Monday, August 04, 2008 10:44 PM
argh. why do i suddenly have so many problems? shuts. and those dummy teachers. argh. so many tests. i sooo hate doing all those homework and wow. common test!! argh. what's their probleem?! they like to torture people so much they should just go punch their bolsters and pillows. why is the school, teachers and even the others taking out their dumbass fury on me. ok, i'll try not to take it so personally but so irritating larh. everyday wakeup i have to think whether today or tmr got test anot. im sick of this kind of life sia. yet, there's nothing i can do to change it. now, even mosquitoes are against me. why?! omg. forget it. i want to have a night of peace too. sleepy pig.&lynlynluvskandayu©
Friday, August 01, 2008 6:10 PM
FREAKISH FREAK FREAK..OkOk.. i take back my last post ok?? can see this right?? LOL&lynlynguanlan-ing©
