SUFFERING FROM SEVERE CASE OF MENTAL BREAKDOWN.
damn. what is the world coming to. bad dreams recurring lately. life in the day seems smooth, but at night i get not even one moment of peace. sometimes it's my dad, sometimes it's my bro, some other times it's even the mosquitoes and bed bugs irritating me. ARGH. more problems just keep poping up. is god or heaven or anything that's above trying to bully me? damn. see larh such a happy day today ended up in a total big mess. what's this?! from the looks of it, things just aren't ready to be resolved yet. i just feel like dropping everything off at this point and stop confusing myself over and over again. i was thinking perhaps i dont even like him that much for me to do things until this extreme. in my head i would be thinking to myself, "please larh, what era liao, i should just be more straightforward if not in the first place cause all this problems for what." ARGH. i dunno whether i truthfully think i am to blame but i am sure i didn't want this to happen either. damn. i'll just shut off for now then.
&lynlyn©
